Rules: Go to Google.com and look for the expressions below. Be mature and use your REAL name. Use the first thing that appears and that makes any sense.

Question (Q): Put "[your name] needs" on Google.
Answer (A): " Josh needs a replacement."

Q: Put "[your name] looks like" on Google.
A: " Does anyone know what Josh looks like"

Q: Put "[your name] says" on Google.
A: "Josh says goodbye."

Q: Put "[your name] wants" on Google.
A: " Josh Wants Sawyer to Die Badly"

Q: Put "[your name] does" on Google.
A: "Josh does brain surgury"

Q: Put "[your name] hates" on Google.
A: " Josh hates you all equally"

Q: Put "[your name] asks" on Google.
A: "Josh Asks a Question."

Q: Put "[your name] becomes" on Google.
A: "Josh becomes a medieval page."

Q: Put "[your name] likes" on Google.
A: "Josh likes leopard tights"

Q: Put "[your name] eats" on Google.
A: " Josh Eats Babies."

Q: Put "[your name] wears" on Google.
A: " Josh Wears Prada"

Q: Put "[your name] was arrested for" on Google.
A: " Josh was arrested for Distribution of Marijuana with intent"

Current Mood: confused

holy shit its been over a years since my last "real post".

i suck. XD

so another summer started, another one as a lifeguard. Already saved 2 people on the same day this summer. Glad i remembered what to do.

in the previous month i went to greece and turkey, and have every intention of going back over seas first chance i get (though this may be next summer after i graduate).

life is...fleeting. i feel like many things i once had are now gone, and/or are only shadows of what they once were. i feel like my friends keep blowing me off, and despite myself saying "no that can't be, they really do care they just forgot", after like the 4th time in 2 weeks...i'm getting a little peeved. my high school days are gone...and i have a feeling the same thing will happen when i graduate next year. a few people will stick around, but eventually most of it will just fade away. The world has moved on, as roland from the dark tower series would say.

Kristina and i are now entering our year and 4 months, and still going strong <3. she leaves for Israel in like, a week, and i'm hoping to hear from her while she's over there, even if it is just quickly online...i wonder if she can receive snail mail...i have postcards!

not much in my life is really all that interesting at the moment...

my money situation has me stressed a bit, but i won't even acknowledge the chance of not coming back next semester. i'm coming back...i just need to figure this shit out. i will not be overcome. period.

i turn 21 in a month. O.O

i've begun work on my europe watercolors. tis exciting.

the future is bright, and filled with too many options. @.@

Current Mood: contemplative

There’s a storm on the horizon

Chorus:
There’s a storm on the horizon…
Where the eagle doth fly,
There is children in the meadow,
And a tear in my eye.
There’s a storm on the horizon,
Overcast with truth,
I have given and gave;
Pitter-patters on the roof.

Verse 1:
Well the rain’s not yet airborne,
But my dreams seem to be.
Some darkness is coming,
It will wash over me.
And forever I seem to
Be given new life,
There’s a storm on the horizon,
And I’m paralyzed with fright.

Chorus

Verse 2:
Seven strikes of lightening,
But the thunder counts four.
The ground is drinking,
but its always wanting more.
The wind, it whistles
As it passes me by,
There’s a storm on the horizon,
One I can’t deny.

Chorus

Verse 3:
I leave dry things behind me.
As I take steps forward,
The storm beckons for me
With its deep rumbling chord.
I know not where I’m going
As I walk through the mists
There’s a storm on the horizon,
Which you’ll find me amidst.

Chorus

Verse 4:
Is it our Lord crying
As it begins to pour?
There’s a million different feelings
That weren’t there before...
The trees are all waving,
Is it goodbye or hello.
There’s a storm on the horizon
Where I’m sure to go.

Chorus

Verse 5:
I am being washed clean
While I stand in the mud.
The rain is making
The flowers in me bud.
The water will wash
The dead things from me
There’s a storm on the horizon,
And behind me a sea.

Chorus

Verse 6:
The grass is pushed down,
Whilst my heart is flung high,
The clouds move faster,
As they’re crossing the sky.
And I raise my eyes,
As the storm moves to the west.
There’s a storm behind me,
And I’m ready for the next.

(c) August 11, 2007. Words by Joshua Sti[

Current Mood: accomplished

so my apoligies, but life kind of sweeps me up once in awhile, and that coupled with the innerworkings of my mind being very stubborn about posting in this thing makes my posts few and far between.

its not that i don't want to, its just i haven't felt the right inspiration to post as of late. so instead of filling this with reasons why i haven't posted, lets get down to the nice and juicy life thing.

mmm, juice.

several things have happened since i last posted...such as i ditched two seperate jobs i was hired for (custodian and wal*mart) to be a life guard. it pays more, i choose my hours, and its rewarding. I feel really neat to know several ways to save someones life if the situation called for it. its just cool. i just got certified yesturday (god its a long process) and i'm working at the old apartment comlex i used to live in in 4th and 5th grade. no one i know is there anymore, but its neat to go back there after so many years. that was actually come to think of it a decade ago. now i feel old. ><

speaking of feeling old, my sister turned 18 AND graduated and i'm like omg, she's going off to iraq in august and blah. stop groooowing. it was weird being at her graduation, since mine was 2 years ago, but it seems like so much longer. it was...long. XD.

kristina and i are still happy and going strong. 4 months on...monday. she went off to barcelona, spain a few weeks ago, and upon returning i came and picked her up from the airport and spent the weekend at her house. it was nice listening about spain for a few hours on the drive home, and my life felt incredibly dull comparativly when i filled her in on the happenings of my life, especially since nothing really happened.

upon arriving at her house i knew it was a good sign when i called my mom to say i was "home" and then i rushed to cover myself and ended up saying we were at the house...i was there 5 minutes and i already had a feeling of comfort and i dunno. i just thought it was neat. we went to go eat and when i came back her mom had put all my stuff downstairs because it was cooler, and had a "welcome to Maryland" sign. i was sooooo happy. he family was so welcoming and it was just wonderful. the weekend was just awesome, from the carnival, to the harvest moon, to well...everything. it was probobly the highlight of my summer thus far. her mom and sister are awesome. lol. i'll stop ranting now, but it was indeed very nice.

i was sad to go, but i had work, and travel there and back was wonderful. no traffic, no weather. woot.

work on both kristina and i's part has made us not be able to talk as much, but oh well. i miss her. but i live on.

i've been sleeping a lot earlier and waking a lot earlier. not on purpose either. my body was like, you are sleeping now. and you are waking now. and i have to suffer along for the ride. it seems it wanted to purge my insomnia. XD

other than that not much has happened. just kinda going with the flow. i need to get back into my posting fix...i have a few things i really wanna bang out.

and on that note, i'll go back into radio silence.

up and its not even a real post how sad.

anyway, i was going through my old journal (on xanga) which i had for 3 years and i came across a hilarious post which i thought i'd share. (yeah, am i sad or what?)

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Dec 04, 2004

So, me and Lucy were sitting in the office.....Well I was sitting, Lucy was in some kind of awkward position, but I'm all for awkward positions myself, so it's all good.

Also, Boss was there making fun of how tired Lucy was looking. She said "Hey Josh, I think you should take Lucy out for ice cream." This was funny becasue 1. I don't have a car,Two, I'm poorer than a polish boy on new years, and III.......there is no number three.

So anyway Lucy and I end up going out for ice cream. About five seconds into the trip I was like, "So....um.....where are we going?" (Mind you, remember Boss's comment about Lucy being tired)

One of us gets the idea to she see if Darbie would like to come along, since she knows the area, and we sort of wanted to see her. So we pull into the parking lot of a tractor store (woot, Justin!) and it was a John deer store too(double woot!). By the time we find out Darbie is unreachable by any of our attempts, we're about halfway there, so we decide to look for a Dairy Queen in the area.

We end up pulling onto "A dark highway" and then "another dark highway" and so since we had no clue where these "dark highways" led, we decided to get off at the nearest exit, and did so. So we have no clue where we are, we just knew we were going in the general direction of right.

We noticed the Coventry Mall spotlights (knew those things were good for something), and so we headed toward that general direction. We ended up back on Route 100, only going the opposite way that we had come in the first place. And so being disgruntled by our misadventure, I decided to head to some familar territory where we actually knew the location of a DQ.

About half way there we run into a road block: Rt. 100 is closed. So we follow the detour and end up down where 113 is in Exton. This is where we were heading away, so this was all snazzy good. I decided to take a "shortcut" off of 113, onto a road which I thought would take us close to the DQ. Well it did take us close to the DQ, just not where I thought it would come out. So when we came out, I said to turn left, and while waiting for the light to change I noticed that the shopping center with DQ was to the right and said so. We did a U-y (in a gated community, mind you) and turned into the shopping center and went into the DQ three speed bumps later.

As we walked in, we figured this madness was over, and we had finally worn out our bad luck.... you all know where this is going.....don't you?

So, we eat our ice cream, and lucy talks to dana, and then we leave.

We decide to go visit diane at CVS, because i thought she was working there that night, and we get ther without incident. We go in, and to make a not so long story short, she wasn't there. since i had no clue what house she lives in, we turned our eyes toward home......well....innabah is home....well.......you know what i mean.

So, we end up going some more good old backroads to get back to rt. 113 (we made that one ok). But i miscounted one light and we ended up pulling into a hotel parking lot (with cheap speedbumps too!) and end up having to do a complete 360 deegree turn around (in red robin's parking lot, just to get back to the right light. So, as we go down 100 agian, thinking it must be open by now....we find out one major hole in that idea-it wasn't. so....thinking we're as good as last time, we follow the detour sign pointing left. then the detour sorta just dissappeared after awhile, and we ended up following this road forEVEEEEEEEEEEER. this road had so many twists and turns, we didn't know which way we were going by then (somewhere on the wrong side of the turnpike) and silly me not bringing a compass. we end up coming out on a road not to far from my house. which is pretty much going the exact oppsite direction you need to go to get to innabah.

so picture this scene, lucy giggling in her distiguished llaugh of hers (i love it) and me head in in hands, shaking my head in disbelief, and us doing U-y's and K turns like there's no tommorrow.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO......we back track it back to 113 by yet a third back road....or is it 4th....5th??? a bajillion or so, and decide to take the original detour we took before we got ice cream (that seemed so long ago).

so, we manage to get on the other side of the road block, and by the time we go past it......THEY CLEARED THE ROADBLOCK!!!!!!!

*shakes head*

so, by this time, i'm looking at the sku and remarking how beautiful the stars look, because they did! orions finally back out! i so happy! and so i admired hat for a bit.

so we got home after a 3 hour 1 minute and 16 second trip to get two ice creams.......

insane......

also.....while typing the very post you are reading, i got about halfway in and i accidently DELETED every last word except for a lowercase r.

i sorta stared in disbelief and then just started pounding the table and saying " ITS NOT FAIR" in a desparing voice.

it isn't tho.....

all we wanted was some ice cream! but it was fun....and funny......and one of the memories i won't forget for a long time to come.

by the way, the ice cream was good.

haha, it woulda sucked if the dairy queen was closed when we got there.

its almost one.

peace.

-josh
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and now i feel obligated to make a real post...because its just sad if i can't come up with new material. *cracks fingers*

college ended, and so did my interaction with people physically. I haven't seen a living soul outside of my family or the people i interviewed with for a job, and my best friend sam for like an hour or two. I really miss...everyone!

my body has been out of wack from adjusting out of cafe food and into no food. my poor poor body. My room is a mess. I should have been unpacking but instead i've been relaxing, because last week was so draining.

Some college students welcome home, my home is quite literally where the heart is. And that right now is in Maryland. When i told her i felt like i was home when i was with her, i really ment it.

I could go on a really long tangent about home...but i'll spare you all.

otherwise, things are good i guess. God good grades for the semester. Got a wonderful girlfriend. Have loving and supporting friends. And i may have a really good job lined up for the summer.

nods... hows that for a post? :)

-josh

Step 1: Put your media player on random.
Step 2: Post a line of the 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone on your friends list guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold-face or cross out the lyrics that have been identified correctly, and write next to the lyric who correctly guessed it.
An' no cheatin'!

1. I left my concious pressed between the pages. Pandora
2. Take this cup away from me, for i don't want to taste its poison.
3. I like coffee, i like tea, i like you, baby, next to me!
4. I'm free as i stare at the sea, and i'm not coming down.
5. Cat! I'm a kitty cat! And i dancedancedance and i dancedancedance. Kemmi 1st, buttered a close 2nd
6. In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee. kemmi and buttered, same places
7. Just two hearts living, in two seperate worlds.
8. And when i lose my cool, i don't know what to do.
9. Everytime i turn around i got another show.
10. Nous aurons pour nous l'éternité (Translation: We will have for us eternity)
11. Look at this stuff. Isn't it neat? Wouldn't you think my collection's complete? kemmi and buttered again, same places.
12. The doctor gave him two weeks to live, i'd give him more if i could.
13. Fumbling is confidence, and wondering why the world has passed him by.
14. At least you tried, thats more than anyone around you.
15. California, do your deed. She's your priestess, i'm your priest. boredinsomniac
16. Some kind of happiness thats measured out in miles.
17. Shes a pretty girl, do you want to tear her down?
18. Stop! I wanna go home! Take off this uniform, i wanna go home.
19. Little girl, do you know what i mean? Pretty soon she'll be seventeen.
20. I see a little siloetto of a man. Kemmi

Mwhahahaa. I have a PG-13 life, which i agree to. I definatly am a dependent, not a loner tho. And i don't ge how i'm an old geezer....XD And i love how i'm called Libertarian, but i agree with them less than half the time. XDDD

Some of these questions were surprisingly personal.

Current Location: My dorm, as usual
Current Mood: amused

a really wonderful day.

i am so in love.

happy one month kristina.

my mind keeps fighting change, but i keep telling myself it is inevitable.

its just hard to lose so much at once.

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot. i'm really happy right now. i didn't think this would ever happen! wwwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeee. i'm going out with kristina!

Current Mood: loved